*trigger warning The last week has been one of the toughest yet. The tears, grieving and tiny bit of hope mixed in has literally done my head in. Scan today confirmed the worst after my suspected missed miscarriage last week… our little embryo died at about 6 weeks but my body just hasn’t realised it … More To my Angels
Scan at 6 weeks 3 days. Gestational sack… tick. Yolk sack… tick. However the lady doing the scan couldn’t see the embryo or a heartbeat. Nada. Nothing. Flatline. I don’t really remember anything the nurse said after that. Something about the gestational sack being a bit small for 6 weeks but it didn’t sink in. … More Flatline
Gaaaaaah! I can be such a stresshead sometimes. Every single minute I am comparing pregnancy symptoms now to what I was experiencing at this stage last time…. every. single. minute…!!!! It doesn’t help that there are loads of things going on at the moment… Works sucks..! Yes truly and more than usual. Grievances being raised, … More Stress
Don’t really have words to describe what I’m feeling! Officially 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant! Eeeeek! Can’t really let myself feel it yet…. doesn’t even feel real. Fingers, toes and all limbs crossed for viability scan and a teeny tiny heartbeat on the 18th July… It’s so strange how the IVF process lets you … More eeek! Poppy seed!
Wow time has flown! I’ve managed to survive the treatment side of this FET cycle – the injections, tablets, pessaries and enormous mood swings! On top of that, work has been hellish and it has been SO FREAKIN HOT! Therefore I’m officially awarding myself with a medal (made of chocolate, naturally) for getting to this … More Embryo on board
Agh I hate the buggers! I thought my last round of treatment had cured me of my fear, but nope, yesterday was the first day of busrelin injections and it took me about 20 minutes of umming, ahhing, hesitating, re-reading the instructions and faffing before I finally managed to buck up the courage to stick … More Needles
There is now an official plan for my FET! Eeeek! The countdown is on… – 50 days until the planned day of embryo transfer – 50 days until I get reunited with hopefully one (or maybe both!) of my frosty embryos who have been so patiently waiting for me – 50 days to lose some … More 50 days and counting
Tuesday this week was our meeting with the IVF consultant to talk about starting a FET cycle soon. Our childcare fell through so we had to take our son with us and I felt SO SO embarrassed! I remember being pissed off at women who had their children with them when I was being treated … More Just a little scratch?
Today I had my assessment scan, to check things out before we have our meeting with the consultant next week. Walking into the IVF clinic was the weirdest thing ever. Remembering that the last time I was there I was half convinced I’d never ever be a mother… and realising that this place made my dreams come … More Here we go…
How am I feeling? A good mix of scared & excited at the moment… and nothing really has happened yet! Well, I say nothing has happened – we’ve made the decision that we are ready to start IVF again and try for a second child. While I was pregnant, and after having our son a lot … More Ding Ding! Round 2